All The Spaces In Between

 Somedays, I wonder why I'm here,
I wake
I eat
I have panic attacks
I vomit
I cry
I rinse and repeat.

Somedays I write, and some days I do nothing but sleep the day away because the depression is so bad.

But some days, the days and the spaces in between, I hang out with my friends and I hope I make a lasting impact on their lives, because if not I don't even know why I'm around. 

Most days I feel like a giant waste of space, of life, and resources.

Like what is the point of me?

I don't know what I add to this world.

So if you're feeling this way, know that you're necessary to the people in your life, they think you're valuable and worthy of their time. 

Love,

Phyre

❤️

CBT, Depression And Me!

Things I Have To Rember!

As a human who suffers from Major Depression, these things can all affect me and I need to start keeping better track of when these things are pushing in on my bubble and that I'm effectively using all of my coping skills to mitigate some of my dysfunction. I need to remember that none of these things lessen my value as a human, they are just things that happen in my life.

• Things turning out badly. 
• Getting what you don’t want. 
• Not getting what you want and believe you need in life; thinking about what you have not gotten that you wanted or needed. 
• Not getting what you have worked for. 
• Things are worse than you expected. 
• The death of someone you love; thinking about the deaths of people you love. 
• Losing a relationship; thinking about losses. 
• Being separated from someone you care for or value; thinking about how much you miss someone.  Being rejected or excluded. 
• Being disapproved of or disliked; not being valued by people you care about. 
• Discovering that you are powerless or helpless. 
• Being with someone else who is sad, hurt, or in pain. 
• Reading about other people’s problems or troubles in the world
  
  
  

Are these things maybe pressing in on your bubble and making you feel a little tight in your skin? What are some things that you can do to give you space? If they are, it might be something to think about. Just know, you're valid, valued, and necessary. I love you.

Phyre

❤️